Hellfire and Dead Flesh

So, barring a real blog, this will have to do. I'm not sure what to do with this account anymore.

I haven't really drawn anything worthwhile in over a year and a half. I'm out of practice, out of service, and out of money.

Finally got to start on my dream path, and let it slip. Now working in a shit job, after draining myself to near-negative balances, and am trying not to think about my various debts.

Clearing out a lot of old memories. Family decided to clean out their garage, and so a flood of old books, souvenirs, and other crap have to come home to me.. and frankly, I didn't want it. Now I'm having to sort through mementos that I didn't want, don't need, and frankly, wish I hadn't wasted money on. I just traded four hundred dollars worth of paperback books in for store credit at a used bookstore I probably will never use.

I feel like it's past time for me to move on, move out, and get on with my life. I need to find my way back to my path, and get moving. Right now, I'm attempting to clear out my effects, slim down my personal stock, and in general,lighten my load.

I'm in a relationship, finally... that's not at all what I expected, and is barely more than a friendship.. but it is more, and I'm having a bit of a hard time figuring out exactly what that means to me. I'm trying to figure out what to do with a digital stalker I seem to have picked up, and don't want.

I'm trying to simplify my life, and it just doesn't seem to be working.

oh well. I'll get there... or I'll just bonfire everything I own that won't fit in my car, pack it up, and drive off into the sunset before the economy collapses all the way.

unsure, unstable, and in general, nonplussed